somehow tho... somehow as we tirelessly endeavour to serve our God...i've began to realise that we get caught up in the many things we want and lose sight of what God wants. We want people to do things our way. we want things to reach the standard of perfection we often have. we want recognition for all we do for God and moreover we want to please people. we want them to like us... But God has been pointing out all the things that need changing in my life. My service to God has to be about God, not about me. i now know that if i truly understand and live by this statement it means i sometimes have to lay aside things that others might not think i should lay aside, i sometimes have to do things that others might not think i should do and i sometimes have to disappoint people, offend people and disagree with people. People are sometimes not gonna be pleased with me. Friends, family...but this is something i have to do to be a living sacrifice, to live for God alone.
it hurts to realise that friends and family whom you love may not always support you when you make changes you believe God wants you to make. but i've come to realise that my very purpose is to please my God, to put Him first, not man. i'm 25 and i feel as though my life to this point has been in vain because i have spent it living for myself and not for God. i suddenly realised one day that i had forsaken my first love. i realised it was time for change.